Coming to Terms with Depression

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor nor do I claim to be one. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, are injured, or are feeling thoughts of depression, anxiety, or anything else, please contact a medical professional IMMEDIATELY!

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

Depression is one of the most common illnesses affecting over 20 million people. Not only does it affect the minds way of thinking but it also affects the physical aspects as well.

I suffered from depression for about 4 years before coming to terms that I was depressed. During those years I just figured I was tired and stressed due to everyday living and eventually I would work everything out. Unfortunately things never got better they only got worse.

I experienced most of the signs and symptoms that come with being depressed: Being tired all the time and wanting to sleep as much as I could. I lost interest in doing the things I liked to do. Not being able to concentrate at work and not wanting to be bothered with anything or anyone. I constantly thought that my life was useless and I was helpless. I would get angry quite easily and my patience diminished. Crying was an everyday thing, no matter what anyone said to me I would take it the wrong way. Things got the the point where I just didn’t care about anything or anyone.

I knew I was not the same person I used to be and no matter how hard I tried to get better by myself I couldn’t do it. It was so frustrating, I knew I was depressed, but at the same time I didn’t want to admit it to myself and especially not to my friends or family. I thought “What would they think of me” So I would come up with as many excuses I could think of to get me out of being a depressed person. I would just tell people that I was tired or I had a bad day. After awhile the excuses’ got old and my friends knew something was not right with me.

It wasn’t until I was 23 I came to terms with my depression. I was pregnant at the time and sitting in a room at my doctors’ office. My mom suggested that I take a test so I can see myself that i was in fact depressed. So I did and I couldn’t believe how many boxes I checked. I wasn’t happy at all that I was diagnosed with depression, but at the same time there was a sense of relief.

I got prescribed zoloft and after about 6 months my mom pointed out to me how she could notice a change. I began to think and I also could notice and begin to feel a change within myself. I am now 26 and I couldn’t feel better. I sometimes talk to my friends and family about my past depression. It was sad to hear how I used to be and at times hard to hear what kind of person I was.

There are so many people who are depressed and don’t know it or just don’t want to face the facts, like myself. There are mild cases and severe cases of depression, but no matter what the degree, if you feel and know that something isn’t right with you I urge you to get help and know your options. Don’t wait to see if you can “get better” by yourself cause the longer you wait the worse it may become.

If you know of anyone who may be depressed or you yourself are experiencing the signs and symptoms of depression do not hesitate to get help. It’s an illness that can be cured and shouldn’t be ignored.

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor nor do I claim to be one. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, are injured, or are feeling thoughts of depression, anxiety, or anything else, please contact a medical professional IMMEDIATELY!

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

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